I have stepped into my destiny….I committed to the first step and took it…I said yes…I stepped out of the chaos just for a moment, out of the confusion and uncertainty… through the soft veil of time into connection…munay…infinity…Since I was a kid I wanted to ‘help heal the world of pain and suffering’ now I know that is not what is required of me, it’s not my place or responsibility….My responsibility is to heal myself, to eek out all the painful hooks and let go of all the suffering I chose to hold on to, so I can shine like the sun without casting any shadows on the world, so I can walk hand in hand with others as they embark on their own journey of healing and transformation.
You see I am training to become a shaman…a shaman of the Inca tradition, medicine man, energy worker, conduit between heaven and earth….I started my journey in the south, place of the serpent, place of illumination, place of fire, light, combustion….
To walk hand in hand with someone as you take your step from pain to pleasure is a tremendous experience, more than any other healing experience I have been through…wounds….deep…powerful…unconscious…hidden….all drawn up and combusted…I found it difficult at first to show my vulnerability, to show my dark frightened side, my soft belly, and to bring it up and present abandonment, hurt, self doubt…..then within minutes see it transform into peace, acceptance, joy and laughter….miracles do happen…
I had doubts about myself as a shaman, doubts that I could do it, doubts that I would be any good…fire combusted it…..I stepped into the role of shaman and I realised that the thinking mind has no place in that moment…when you cradle someone’s head in your hands, searching their soul for the vulnerability and pain, and giving it permission to surface…..no mind is required….only presence…..intent…munay….infinity
When the healing happens infinity takes over….it seeps into every part of your being, it seeps into the room and the person you are holding, they have called, its theirs, and all of ours…the world stops…just for a while…but it feels like forever.
The body calls you back, a deep gasp of life and breath, like the first breath of a newborn, and there glowing in the corners of the mouth is a smile.
The illumination process takes that which you no longer need, that which stops you saying yes to life, that causes pain, suffering, illness, and it combusts it with light, the transformational power of fire…serpent, and brings it to infinity…and when you come back, it starts to transform…into love, peace, acceptance, laughter…..enabling you to take a step towards life to pleasure…
Hatun Amaru, great serpent, Sachamama….Thank you thank you, thank you for helping us shed our past the way you so beautifully shed your skin, thank you for your coils of light you so gently and powerfully wrap around us, thank you for helping us feel and sense the deep recesses of the soul to find that which no longer serves us, thank you for helping us to grow and shine so beautifully as you do….Ho…
Serpent Walker
Coils of light wrap around me, as I call serpent to me
Hatun Amaru, Hatun Amaru…
Soft scales gently and slowly enfold me, squeezing the spaces in my mind and soul
“I see you lurking there, un-named shadow….let me feel you, know you, remember you”
Coils of light wrap around me, my breath quickens…my throat cramps up
Hatun Amaru, Hatun Amaru…
No where left to hide, shadows run…pouring the ache all through me…shadow hiding in a Kuya
“Don’t be afraid, you will be my medicine”
Coils of light wrap around me, and like its prey before the kill, I surrender with love and relief
Hatun Amaru, Hatun Amaru…
A little death touches me as the last of my breath is squeezed out
I melt into infinity…..
Coils of light wrap around me, and I am floating on an ocean of light
Hatun Amaru, Hatun Amaru…
My body calls me back…coils of light unravel…leaving me to bask in the warmth of the sun….naked…innocent, I lay like a serpent on a rock…tears rolling down my cheek…
I take a breath…joy fills my lungs…and laughter bursts out!!
All is full of love, and it is glorious…
Hatun Amaru, Hatun Amaru, Sachamama
